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[zevranfadewalk]

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There is danger in being here, I think. The more days pass, the easier it is for us to see this as our new reality. For some, it must seem better than their own. For some, demons or no, Fade or no, it must seem an answer to a peculiar sort of prayer.

This is not the case for me. For me, it is hard. For me, it is a trial, a test of every weakness I had thought defeated.

It does not help that he is still hurting. He is raw inside, still fresh in her betrayal, and I could be the friend I once was and let him burn through his pain. I could watch his face and see memories of her in his eyes. Or I can let my own impatience sear away the memory and make him realize there are better, truer, more dear friends than our Warden.

Ah, but he would not believe me. And in that disbelief, I find myself all too easily backtracking on the hard truths I found within myself. I also find an unexpected pain at his rejection, even knowing that in my time, he no longer turns me away. It stings. I had not anticipated how much.

To think I would come to this. Tsk.



Alistair

There are a great many frustrated love stories in this castle. Listening in on anxiously heartfelt conversations is a constant delight.

Comments

Re: Zevran

[zevranfadewalk]

He is a very controlled man when he is near people, but he is not so controlled when he thinks he is alone.

Also, I am reading his diary, yes.

Re: Zevran

[exiledalistair]

You're a bad man and I hope you're not reading my diary.

Maker's breath, you're definitely going to now aren't you?

Maybe I'll burn the damn thing.

Alistair

[zevranfadewalk]

I will not read your diary, my friend! I will tease you mercilessly for your thoughts instead.